Sunday, October 7, 2007

Saying Goodbye

This has been a sad weekend. I haven't said too much to anybody as I've been trying to keep this blog as positive as possible. Unfortunately my paternal grandfather died yesterday.

My heart goes out to my dad as I know this is a difficult time. And I'm sorry to know that my grandfather is gone, and all that should have been said and all the hurts that should have been mended will never be able to.

Soon after my grandfather divorced my paternal grandmother, he entered another marriage and had little to do with his 5 children and their families. I can probably count the number of times I've seen and conversed with him on one hand. He wasn't at my brother's nor my wedding.

I'm not angry. Just sad and disappointed. Just wished my father had the father he deserved. It's ironic that my grandfather passed just a few months shy of our baby's birth. Granted I don't know if they would have ever met, but it would have been nice.

People are who they are. Somehow in all that mess, my dad became one of the most amazing people I know & I know that he'll be the light of our baby's life. And for that I am appreciative of my grandfather.

1 comment:

Cynthia said...

How wonderful of you to find forgivness and acceptance for your grandfather. You ability to do so will bring such acceptance into your own life again and again. Take care.